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Thursday, December 20, 2012

hello ! once again


It's been quite some time since I started blogging again. I'm a busy woman, you know. hehe!




Recently, I stumbled upon a post on twitter about a page called "Alvin & Yuki". The comments were full of anger and insults, my curiosity aroused immediately and went to check it out. Turns out, it was a story of a woman getting cheated on. My first reaction was "This woman is torn apart, completely."

Her story ❤

Episode 1- The episode where I end my life. 

05.07.2011
After 2 years of courtship and pakto, I was lucky to have you as my boyfriend. We have no problem blending into each other life. Have a very good relationship with your family, the day has come. The most important of my life. You have chosen this important day to propose to me. I remember this date very well as it is the Singapore election date. You have invited my family, close friends to witness the wedding proposal. What a surprise and this day is the day I will not forget such a sweet memories.

20.08.2011
I promise myself this year is going to be the my last day as a single lady. We went to Desaru for a romantic night looking at the firefly around us. Thank you Alvin for arranging such night.

10.09.2011
First time introducing our parent to each other official. The parents agreed our wedding date on the 16.06.2012.

11.2011
Road trip to Melaka. Made a Kebaya for our wedding because your comes from mother peranakan family. Looking forward for my long awaited wedding.

29.01.2012
I really enjoy the process of preparing our wedding although there are some arguments along the way. But i believe we can always learn to compromise and compliment each others. You told me previously that you will be very busy after you transferred into a new department. You asked me whether can you transfer to Hongkong after marriage, as a wife I will fully support you career advancement.

01.02.2012
Chinese new year season. You cleaned your room so that I can move in my things to your house anytime. I am so excited as the day I become Mrs Yang is coming very soon

10.02.2012
You brought your parents family to my hometown Pontian to officially propose to my mother.

17.02.2012
Attended the church pre-wedding camp for three days. Looking forward for this camp as the day we started our relationship is on Christmas. I always think you are the gift from God. We further confirmed our decision to get married after attended this camp and will cherish our love more each day

27.02.2012
My friend Alston proposed for a join honeymoon together. Happily I shared his idea to you. but without asking my opinion you rejected harshly unlike other time where we always discuss. I realize you are losing your patience and losing your temper on me easily these days. Perhaps due to your work stress?

11.03.2012
This is the day the girl officially appeared in our relationship between Yuki and Alvin. You are the best man of your good friend Denson’s wedding. ZR is the brides maid

18.03.2012
We are arranging for our wedding schedule as the wedding is less than 3 months away. You told me any arrangement is fine except 07.04.2012 as you are busy. Why busy? You gave me a lame reason saying that your good friend Denson’s mother in law ask you to organize a surprise birthday party for Denson. Of all people, Denson’s mother in law ask you…. hmmph…..
I asked why Denson mother in law ask you to organize such party while you should be busy about your wedding. You kept quiet.
I asked can I go to the party. You kept quiet.
I knew something wrong, went up and cried. I knew you are hiding something. From this day onwards you have been giving lies to me such as telling me you are working late, busy etc.

01.04.2012
I am trying different wedding gown in the bridal house for our pre-wedding photo shoot. During the pre-wedding photoshoot I can see you playing with SMS/Whatsapp all the time which is unlike the normal you
We have a Salsa dancing shot in the pre wedding video. However you scolded me very harshly because I could not remember the steps. Felt extremely down because I only learnt less than 2 months and lack of practice. We are lack of practice because you are too busy to practice with me and you knew it.
I have learnt compromise each other and said ”Dear, on our wedding day, if I dance badly, can you please don’t scold me so harshly?”

10.04.2012
My friend asked me to share how we met and our wedding preparation process. I told them with joy but broke down into tears in the toilet. My instinct told me that there is something not right. You said your boss told you to think twice before getting married as we may have changed. To my surprise after your boss told you this you asked me to reconsider whether should we get married

11.04.2012
My sister and future brother in law Dobby and Shaun and myself are having lunch with you near your office. You broke your temper to me suddenly. Broking down to tears, Dobby and Shaun comfort me that perhaps you are too stressed up with work

12.04.2012 – this is the day
After so many days of quarrel you called me to date me for dinner. Bought flower and chocolate to your room for a little surprise. As I need to do some work, I on your computer and found a love letter from ZR to you.

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From: ZR
Sent: 05 April 2012 23:23
To: Yang, Alvin: Operations (SGP)
Subject: Baby love
Hi Baby,
Thank you for the wonderful day. Just 14 hours ago, you were at my place. picking me for a start of a wonderful day.
Ive been to so many theme parks. With so many people. I've never bought a thing cause I never felt it was worth it.
But today I wanted something so badly that I walked into practically every shop which I usually wont either, in search for something anything that I could bring home and be reminded of you.
I wanted the drawing of us badly. Very badly that I turned back and look at the spot even after we walked away.
I never held a hand so tightly before, wishing and hoping that I never had to let go. Never had I been so emotional, I scared myself.
I guess you are different.
Love,
Darling
>>>>>>
14 Mar 2012

I was stunned looking at the love letter. Not knowing what to do and is only 1 hour away from our date, I forget about this love letter and proceed to enjoy the dinner with you.

After the dinner I proposed to have a walk by the beach. I learnt in the pre wedding camp that we should always forgive each other and cherish our love together. I apologize to you as I may have lose some temper on you. you kept quiet.

Suddenly you broke the silence by saying that you want to break up and cancel our wedding which is 2 months from now.
I cried and beg you not to make such decision. I even forgot all about the love letter in your computer.

You rejected me harshly and firmly. You told me that love and marriage is not your main priority. You want to focus on career. You forgotten how you have proposed to me.

I could not stand anymore and mentally collapse. I lost control and jumped into the sea without any hesitate. After jumping I realize that there is no water where I jumped and injured myself by rocks by the sea.

You did not comfort me but scolded me harshly AGAIN that I threaten you by committing suicide. Can you imagine how I felt that time? I lose all hope in life.

I cried and beg you to understand my feeling. You said this and I could never forget this.

“I knew my parents will be very sad and very disappointed with my decision. I still insist on this, it is impossible for me to consider about your feeling”

You have completely ignore me….
Alvin Yang, you are too selfish and cruel. I am completely collapse and disappointed. Words could not express my feeling that time. I do not know how to face you, face the world. The only thing that comes to my mind is death…..

I swam to the sea and do not intend to come back anymore. You did not come chase me back.
You thought I threaten you again.

After sometime you finally swam and wants to catch me back. However our distance is very far away. You cried and beg me to come back by I really lose hope in life at that particular moment. You shouted that it is so deep and you could not feel the base of the sea, I soft hearted and concern about your safety I swam back.

I was so calm that time. You were very panicked. You even hit me hard at my neck as I am trying to pull you back to the shore. So hard that I almost got choked by you.

We are back at the shore and we agree to have 2 weeks to think clearly on our decision. Not long later my family came by.
I promise you that I will not tell them what happened until you gave me answer. I was badly injured physically and mentally. you do not even dare to look at me when my family come to pick me up.

You has forgotten about your promise and vow when you proposed to me. You said I am the one you love, your fiancé.

To be continued

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